A Lost Love

Tonight, I got bored and reminiscent and started looking through some photo albums of the last 6 or so years. I haven't seen many of these pictures in years, so it was kind of fun to remember the crazy stuff that happened so long ago. The first photos showed me in high school. I had pictures from snoball and prom, and also pictures from chior concerts and musicals. I forgot how much fun those days were. As the pictures go on, they show me at Cowley. I have some from gender bender day and then some from Annie Get Your Gun. The next photos show me with my first and only (so far) true love.

These past several months, I've been really trying to find myself since Erica. I've been having trouble coping with the lonliness in my heart and moving on. Looking back at these photos makes me continue to ask, why did I break up with her. I don't have the answer for this but do cherish the almost 3 years of memories that she gave me. She really is a beautiful person and taught me so much about life. I can only hope that I gave her as much as she gave me.

I constantly make excuses to myself for things that happened in the past, but realize I can't change them. As hard as it is to do, I realize I have to move forward and take what I learned in the past and try to do better in the future. I guess I'm just an impatient person, but deep down I know I may not be ready for something now. I have to become happier with myself and start doing things for myself before I can share my love with someone else again. I look forward to day my next love sweeps me off my feet. Until then, I will continue to learn about myself.